Love.Story.
.Tuesday, January 29, 2008 ' 12:46 AM

just blowing past



Give me another moment,
the sweetest thing in my life,
to you my heart should belong,
long behold the dawn that held the new begining.
My heart will always be with you.


~ unamed ~



Not in a mood to blog. Night is heartless and cold.
STEP UP 2. :)

I still Love you, you know?


.Monday, January 28, 2008 ' 1:25 AM

Monday Morning.

I was able to wake up at 9am this morning, despite sleeping at 4am.

Jia Hui's birthday is 22nd Dec. OMG! This is crazy. LIKE SERIOUSLY CRAZY.
If u want to know more. Please ask me. I will tell u this crazy secret. ;)

Hallplay emcee was fun. Especially the last part it was damn fun to be introducing everyone. Haha! I have proved my detractors wrong! I can do it! :) So i am in a super high mood, coupled by the fact that I have drank 1 bottle of beer. Its =HIGH! muhahahaha!

Cya soon. everybody is happy I hope. Other wise u can share my laughter and joy with me! :)

I still Love you, you know?


.Sunday, January 27, 2008 ' 3:29 AM

James Bond Jr

Oohh. Reminder: Do more back exercise. its 3.31am. Damn, its so late. Fainted.

Clubbing is super fun, I have forgotten how fun it use to be, went to the Vbash at ARENA, which I feel was quite a disappointment. Drinks so diluted, bleargh..... Live band was not bad, but it didnt up the hotness up. It was the lingerie show that was the highlight of the night. WHOAH! But seriously, it was damn nice, But I have seen better. I bet she looks nice in one of those. Anyway, the 2nd highlight was lap dance, done on none other than the president of NUSSU! such a lucky man, 3 hot dancers, but too bad he was a spoil sport. the other guy manage to take off his top , bare bodied and belt. Haha! BRAVO! ;)

Later music was awful, so decided to go MOS instead, as usual the cage is full of muds and adolescents and NS boys. Xian. The main one was playing house, which as quite fun. dance dance dance, with 2 chicks, another 2 chicks, a hot long hair beau. And ended. Hmm, wish it didnt end so early........

Hiaz, this is the last time I shall go. Thou shall not touch clubbing until mid sem is over.
:)




to MNWB: Ni Guo De Hao Mah? Xi wang ni Xing Fu Kuai Le, qing ni bu yao wang ji wo, ying wei, wo hai you hen duo hua yao dui ni shuo. 1 yr later, we shall see. :) Waiting...............

I still Love you, you know?


.Thursday, January 24, 2008 ' 12:55 PM

wat a day

Sorry if I blew ppl up with my posts, but its just a place where I can vent my feelings. Like for example so and so done me injustice or what ever. Its just that its a period where I am trying to change myself for the better like trying new things and challenging myself to rise to greater heights. However, its just that when you are trying to do that, people will definitely try and pull you down or say "u cannot one la." I seriously do not mind, because I can prove them wrong. I am not sure for you, but if my friend is seriously trying to change over or quit smoking, would you tell him, you wont succeed one la or don't waste your time. To me a friend is one who will help you when you are down and share your troubles and happiness, I am glad to say that they did. But when they joke, they joke at the wrong time for me at that point of time, just like its wrong to talk in lecture. Although its not wrong to talk but its not the correct time. I am not gg to dwell too much on it. Lets just say its just a misunderstanding. They joke at the wrong time and I overreacted. Just let it end here. :)

I am not bother by the fact that you are "cold, snobbish", I seriously think you are a nice person and just that maybe I was being a jackass, and being naive that making friends was as easy as ABC, we had some misunderstanding here and there. its my fault this time and I'm sorry.

I still Love you, you know?


.Wednesday, January 23, 2008 ' 1:01 AM

MC :)

Haha, I am gg to MC for hallplay. So excited and jittery.
Jia Hui ask me. Haha, I'm so happy, cause can try something new.

When I told sarah and hazel, the 1st thing they said was don't spoil hall play, which makes me so sad, and many more. Which already adds to the misery that I am useless and good for nothing. I was angry that they criticized me until like that, instead of something motivating they slam me down. So I just keep quiet. So sad actually, cause you can see by the fact that nobody believes in me. I just need someone to believe in me, and I am so touched that Jia Hui believes in me, love her for that. :)

Meanies. :P

Criticized by someone is not a good feeling, especially by "people" whom you think believes in you. If it is just some other people I will just probably shrugged it off, but by hazel and sarah, I feel so hurt. as if I am not hurt enough already. Huilian is best, she knows what to say to me and wat not. Love her for tat too. :). She just comes up and look for me and talk to me. Sarah is when she needs people than only she will look for me, or I go and look for her. I feel so damn xia jian when i think of it, they like totally enjoying themselves downstairs and forget all about me. Is it worth it? Some more now, Huilian not in hall already. haiz.

I shall just find another clique to hang out with. Since they don't believe in me. Stay far far away from them?

My emotional support gone(u know who u are), no friends now. I think I can sign my death contract straight away.

P.S- thanks Juls for your SMS. thats very sweet of you.

I still Love you, you know?


.Tuesday, January 22, 2008 ' 12:38 AM

全世界最没用的男人

Today was a very long day. Had so much things to do. Relativity is understandable enough for me to catch.

I wrote a song, called, 七月的雨.
I almost cried when I wrote the song.
Damn it should stop writing this kind of songs.
Her MSN pic is her current BF, suppose at her house cause I recognize the back drop.
Makes me so super hate myself. I don't know why, I just hate myself.

HATE is a big word. I only use it on myself. Cause, I am Incapable. Stupid. Dumb. Useless. Good for nothing loser. Why, cause I say so myself? Cause I cannot get anything right. So useless rite. I have nothing to be proud of. Not studies, not sports, not looks, not singing, all are average. Being a nice guy is stupid cause everyone can be nice, is see whether they want or not. I am good in nothing.

I still Love you, you know?


.Sunday, January 20, 2008 ' 11:00 PM

Determined.

I am thinking of doing podcast. Haha. Like quite fun leh. :)
Reminder: Go and find out how to do.

I give up on photoshop, also don't know what to do with it.

I brought my favorite chair back to hall, so comfortable, can almost sleep in it. Haha! :)
No la, its suppose to aid my studies cause the chair that KE provides is very uncomfortable.

Jays concert just ended. :( Nv get to see. My friend say it is fantastic. Hmph. Nvm, 2 yrs later than go also can. For now it will be BOOKS! (bleh)

PC1325 is horrendously difficult. But I think it is very interesting. I just learned how to explain the following question.

If you are standing in a moving MRT and you jump straight up, why do you land back on the same spot since when you jump up, you are in the air and the train is moving forward. So logically you would land at a different spot right?

Answ: Because due to he concept of relativity. The moving train is the frame of reference to the person inside, to the person jumping the space inside the moving train is a fixed frame of reference. SO when he jumps straight up he should have landed on the same spot as if he was jumping on normal ground. However, some people might land away from the original spot mainly due to putting a forward force when they jump or that the train is not travelling at uniform velocity. The latter is usually negligible because between the time that you jump and land about (2sec~3sec) ,the train would be traveling at uniform velocity and hence you would not move from the same spot or move minimally.


SOme crazy people ask crazy questions and some even more crazy people are able to answer the crazy questions let me show you an example. I am so dead already.

consider a electron, it has location, rotation, momentum,etc

we can describe it with a N dimension vector with each dimension

representing one of the above qualities. obviously N is small for a

electron but big for a cat. just imagine in a 1000 dimensional space, the

dot product of two 5-dimensional subspace vectors is likely to be 0 : the

probability for the 5 non-zero coordinates to meet 955 0s is much

larger than to meet with the other 5 non-zeros. that's what i mean

by most likely to be orthognal.

there are 2 ways to deal with your problem, both need to sacrifice

some basic propoties of the classical view of the universe. anyway

local realism does not exist.

if we sacrifice locality, Einstein's relativity and ignore the idea that nothing

travels faster than light, then your experiment can be explained

by some "hiden variable theory"---- this is to give up the world to

save a photon

if we sacrifice realism and accept any of the quantum mechanics point

of view, then we dont have a problem at all because before we do our

measurement, the photon does not exist, talking about its path is meaningless

it can simultaneously choose any path and it is at any path at the same time


This is crazy, how can anyone who doesn't know physics know this much!


I still Love you, you know?


.Saturday, January 19, 2008 ' 1:08 PM

Short Hair, Green attire...

This is freaking dumb. Why ARMY ALWAYS never coordinate things properly? Can have long hair or short hair, can dye or not? All these never say properly. Resulting I need to waste money to cut my hair and buy a hairspray to spray it black. For some people they cannot be bothered. For me I try not to be in the spotlight, just that if everyone do their part, we can well be home b4 6pm. If not, we can suk balls and die together.

Prepared my stuff already. Just lacking a black camo cream.

[Continued at 11pm]

Activation is stupid, i concur. Super waste time, go down there sit down and do nothing for 5 freaking hours. But its nice to see so many familiar faces down there. When finished, we went for dinner at Mac. So pack. But it was nice, just like the olden days.

Anyway. Muz rem Feb 4th, Cookies and Cream ice cream.

Maybe when I read back I will remember.



我爱你,你爱我吗?
<3............
Tears welled up....

Familiar? I will always remember...



I still Love you, you know?


.Friday, January 18, 2008 ' 4:12 PM

I'm happy for you.

Today was a slack day, wake up, ate BF with the retard comm.
Do my receipts, check To make sure that Rose dont catch me with my mistakes. Read a little of "intro to computing."

Ate Lunch with PakKin and Wan Qing.

Your new year resolution is to be 21.
Wah so mature, grow up le muz dong be more dong shi.
Wish I can see you grow up. :)
Talking to no one in particular...... :P

Gg back home to slack and wait for activation tomorrow.
No one to spend Sat with, so sad. :(
Nvm I shall spend it staring at my books.



Years, I have waited. The leaves have withered. Time slithered past.....

I still Love you, you know?


.Thursday, January 17, 2008 ' 10:39 PM

Remaning silent.....

One of the most horrible thing that can happen is tat the people you TRY to make friends with, don't appreciate it. And end up, you feel bad cause they think you are nonsense. So important lesson learnt, leave such people alone. They will talk to you if they want to..... Enuf of this depressing episode.

Today very shiong, got 3 lect. Stats, Quantum mechanics and Malay.
Stats was okay. Initially was quite blur, cause I was a bit turn off by someone sitting beside me.
I was unable to focus until Glenn make a joke which broke the tension building up inside me.
Quantum mechanics was a disaster. So cheemenology. I understand some parts but some I just cannot make it clear. KR had it much worse, being an arts student, couldnt follow up and I tink he was zoning out.
Malay was boring, no chio bu and no new stuff, but cannot be complacent. I think a lot of people in there are also good in it too. So need to buck up.

Ran again. Damn shagged. But I ran non-stop till NUH than I stopped cause really damn shagged. Running is good, it makes me eat more and become bigger and have bigger arms. Hopefully I will gain like 5kg at the end of the month can.

Tommorow got practical. :( So fast, week 1 only lo. I want to be slack lo.

Just came back from lounge, was sleeping like, after reading the 1st 4 slides. So ashamed. :P

I just came to realise I did not think of her for 1 whole day. Is it a good sign?

Hazel is a genius to come up with this picture. Its like pure poetry, y cant somethings stay like tat forever.


Credit to Hazelina Yeo.
P.S tat is me. Guess who is she? Haha. No prize! SO obvious.


I go study my quantum mechanics and hopefully understand it. ;P

I still Love you, you know?


.Wednesday, January 16, 2008 ' 11:54 AM

The quest for truth.

Had a late night last night. Wanted to sleep, but must have slept too much during the day.
Tok kok with Angel on MSN.

My whole body f****ing ache like hell. Muz keep it up. I shall not be weak and I shall not fall.

Bio D is crap. Interesting is one thing. But it seems there is nothing to study.

She is gg out of town in Feb, go be Xing Fu Xiao Nu Ren.

Than I this qiong Shu Sheng muz start mugging lo.

I go slp. Than maybe wake up its a bad dream. Haha. As if.........

I still Love you, you know?


. ' 12:08 AM

Bored, listless....

Me wake up at 9am. Did JCRC stuff. Almost fell asleep, went for lunch. Father came. Went to office. Slept till lecture.

I was unable to concentrate during lect, dont know why. I chose to sit far away from my "usual suspects". DOnt know why. Couldnt concentrate and focus. Cause I was thinking on a scale of 0-10 , how big a loser are you? I like gave myself 10.

Valentines coming in 1 month time. I dont want to be alone!!!


My whole body is aching from yesterday push up and todays running.
Ran nonstop until NUH. I kept telling myself : weelee , you are such a loser. Run also cannot run, how can you want her to come back. So I just run and run and run. whoah, I almost died down there.

Gg slpz

Nitez.

I still Love you, you know?


.Monday, January 14, 2008 ' 12:26 PM

1st day of school...

School maybe tiring and bothersome, but I think I still enjoy it. Takes my mind of troublesome stuff. JCRC stuff is getting heavier and heavier. Still with the same old group of frens. But this time, I will try and be more independent. I will not rely on them for company so much, to prevent myself from being too emotionally attached or something.

1st time went lect with Angel. Was fun. Yeah, do it agn! Lect ended in like 0.5 hours. Alvin join us for lunch. Angel went back. :(

My desk is now changed. The table facing the window will be my work area. Notes, books, tut shall be inside the area, as I tink I study better with a nice view.

Gg to watch Jay movie. Cant wait for it. :) SLAM DUNK!!!!!!!!! Yahoo.


I SHALL BE MORE DISCIPLINE THIS SEM !!!!!!

Its time to grow up.


School Rocks.


(Continued blogging at approximately 9.19pm)

Gosh. I suddenly miss you so much. The feeling just overwhelmed me when I was listening to the song " My love will bring you home", I suddenly felt like crying. It was as if it was yesterday you were sitting there looking at me, wrapping your hands so tenderly around me. To open my eyes and find that you have already left, and the tears shed, meant something. It just amounts to more sadness. The pain wears of when the dawn breaks but it breaks me down when dusk sets. The longing to be with you still hangs there, as if on teether hooks, I fear that it may break and I will forget you. I know you want me to be strong and stand up once again, I will do it. I know I can, for you and for the people who care about me, I will fly once again.....

告诉你我不是一个会认输的人
当我不得不承认
从跌倒失败
也曾经守在阴霾

不看不听不说不笑傻傻的发呆
难道我就被打败
多幸运有你
使我的生命充满希望

从今之后不在 垂头丧气走开
所有人的期待 让我站起来
甩掉了主败 从今全打开
我终于明白

Fly 尽全力在飞起来
没有后悔不后退
我让你刮目相看
Just fly 向世界证明我存在
努力过的汗水
不断灌溉 美好未来
cause I can fly
yes I can fly
Oh I believe
yes I believe I believe
Oh I believe I can fly

I still Love you, you know?


.Friday, January 11, 2008 ' 7:49 PM

Back in Hall

The feeling of being back in hall is so shiok. Freedom nv taste this good.
But sad, also the memories that we shared in the room are so sweet, just like husband and wife living together.

Well I have to live life ahead now no point thinking of the past cause its not gg to get me anywhere.
Well 1st day back in hall, met all my dear beloved hall mates and friends.

Was scolded by rose for many things which were not my fault. Aya nvm la. Let her complain la. Cannot be bothered by her.

I need to continue to read my E-book.

Got a pair of ear studs from Hiromi. Quite nice and bling. :)

Juls ask me to go on holiday to bangkok with her. But a bit weird that she should ask me, cause I know we are quite good friends but something doesnt smell rite. Haha. Nvm la. DUn think I will have the time too.

Got my malay. But at a super high cost. 680. Better do well for it lo. Otherwise wasted.

雨 不停落下来 花 怎麼都不开
尽管我细心灌溉 你说不爱就不爱 我一个人 欣赏悲哀

爱 只剩下无奈 我 一直不愿再去猜
钢琴上黑键之间 永远都夹著空白 缺了一块 就不精采

紧紧相依的心如何Say goodbye 你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢 我用背叛自己 完成你的期盼

把手放开不问一句 Say goodbye 当作最後一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今後都不管 只要你能愉快

心 有一句感慨 我 还能够跟谁对白
在你关上门之前 替我再回头看看 那些片段 还在不在

I still Love you, you know?


. ' 10:58 AM

With or without you I will still go on

1 yr 3 months till we meet on my birthday in 2009. No matter how unwilling, I will wait. Whether is it worth waiting for, only time will tell. Well ,in the mean time,move on. Sometimes I feel like I am in a Taiwanese Idol Drama. Haha. Fantasizing.

Juls gave me an e-book, cost $38!!!! Wow, the title is "How to get your ex-back". Its very interesting. Cause i swear the guy is psychic, the questions he poses and ask are like ripped of my mind. I was like : WOW!!!! If you guys out there want a copy can drop me a msg. Just realized the error of my ways. That what I had been doing is wrong and very wrong by dwelling in sadness and grief.

1st Step: Don't contact your Ex for 1 month. AND exercise for 30 mins EVERYDAY!!!!

The purpose is to purge the reliance on your ex emotionally, cause I have been relying too much on her for my happiness in the past 8 months. AS quoted: " No one should have so much power over your happiness or sadness regardless of how much they love you. ".

To know more pls talk to me or SMS me or something. Haha.


Went swimming with Huilian yesterday at Woodlands Swimming Complex, didnt manage to swim much, cause I felt lazy. So we just sat there suntanning and playing with water. Oh and they have a jacuzzi there , but it was like some cheapskate one, cause it is very uncomfortgable to sit on. Huilian can't even sit, cause she will be blown away by the strong current. So dumb.
Haven been in water and talking with someone for a long time, the last time was quite way back with Ying Heng, I rem we sat in like from morning till evening. Until I tink my skin was like gg to peel off. It was quite shiok.

Than there was this group of adolescents were playing in the medium pool which was quite entertaining to watch. There was this wall where they have holes at the top. So one of the guys discover that if you blow into the hole, water would spurt from the other remaining holes. So they started playing. They pour water into the hole and started blowing. TO try and blow into the other persons face who was also blowing. Some of them even put their mouthly excretions into the hole which was gross and hilarious at the same time. One of the boys got a full blast into the face when he was attempting to blow into the hole. So sick! Haha. Later the pool became too crowded bcos there were like over 100 primary school students there. So me and Huilian got out and went and shower. The showers were like whoah!!!! Got doors and partitions and everything. Better than last time when it was like a public shower. Where u can see a naked man nxt to u and u pray hard that he isnt gay. Went to CWP for "tea-break" which was like half a dinner for me. Walk around looking at H/P cause mine expire. So can re-contract. My phone would have to be a 5MP camera, cause I decided to be a camera whore. This Sem. So I would like to have a K850i. WHich ccost $398 with re-contract. Minus my trade in so in total it would be $240! So damn fuckin ex. Xian. Nvm la wait for price to fall.

Gg to move back to hall today, After lunch I shall head back. Damn all the cleaning.

I still Love you, you know?


.Wednesday, January 9, 2008 ' 9:10 PM

Starting afresh

Brand new year. Brand new Blog. Brand new design. Brand new me.

I have decided to abandon my old blog, cause it really reminded me of sad stuff.
So hopefully a new year will bring new hope.

Well 1st thing 1st, I need to reevaluate my new year resolutions.

1- to become a better person. plan my time, focus less on entertainment. Do more constructive exercises.

2- Invest more, so as to get more $$.

3- Be nicer to my family.

4- Punch the guy whose name and face i don't know. But i do really want to punch him. Forgive me god but this is one sin i must commit if i get the chance. SO in order to do that i need to go to the gym to work out so as to be as strong as possible to give a nasty punch.

Done!!!! I just remove the last one. IF you really one to know please read my old blog. But warn you, it may cause teary eyes and sniffing nose. :) So please prepare a tissue box if u want to read.

My modules for this coming Sem so far is

1) Microbiology
2) Statistics
3) Intro to computing
4) Einstein's Universe & Quantum Weirdness

My last one is Malay which I haven started bidding yet.
Wish me luck.

More post to come. :) This shall be a happy blog hopefully!

I still Love you, you know?



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